I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.
Romans 7:15 (NIV)
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What’s Happening (and Who’s Involved)?
Understanding the reality of internal conflict and ongoing sin struggle in the Christian life
What Happens When You Repeatedly Sin? · 6 Days
Romans 7:15
What’s Happening (and Who’s Involved)?
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GREEK
συνίημι
/syniemi/(soo-NEE-ay-mee)
to understand, to put together
Comes from σύν (together) + ἵημι (to put) = ‘to put together’ or ‘understand’. Paul is saying he can’t make sense of his own behavior—he can’t put together why he acts contrary to his own desires and values.
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θέλω — I want, I willμισέω — I hateπράσσω — I do, I practiceοἰκέω — I dwell, I live inῥύομαι — I rescue, I deliver
Paul's Honest Confession About Internal Conflict
The struggle against repeated sin, including the guilt and frustration it produces, is often evidence of God’s work in our lives rather than proof of his absence.
This passage has generated significant theological debate throughout church history. The central question is whether Paul is describing his experience as a non-Christian (before conversion) or as a Christian (after conversion). The evidence suggests he’s describing the ongoing Christian experience:
**Present Tense Verbs:** Paul uses present tense throughout (‘I do,’ ‘I want,’ ‘I hate’), suggesting current rather than past experience.
**Delight in God’s Law:** Paul says he ‘delights in God’s law’ in his ‘inner being’ (v. 22), which describes the regenerate heart rather than the unregenerate mind.
**The Struggle Itself:** The very existence of internal conflict between wanting to do good and failing to do it suggests the presence of a new nature that desires righteousness—something absent in the unregenerate person.
Paul describes a war taking place within himself between two competing forces:
**The Law of the Mind:** This represents the renewed mind that loves God’s law and desires to obey it. This is the new nature created by the Holy Spirit in regeneration.
**The Law of Sin:** This represents the remaining influence of sin in the believer’s life—what theologians call ‘indwelling sin’ or ‘the flesh.’ This is not the believer’s true identity but a remaining corruption that continues to exert influence.
The conflict Paul describes is not between two equal forces but between the believer’s true identity (which delights in God’s law) and the remaining corruption that wars against it.
The Deacon's Secret Struggle
Marcus Thompson had been a Christian for twelve years, a deacon in his church for five, and had led countless Bible studies on victory over sin. But as he sat in his car outside the casino at 2 AM, he felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world. This was the fourth time in six months that he had driven here, telling himself he was just going to ‘look around’ or ‘have dinner,’ only to end up at the blackjack tables until the early morning hours.
The pattern was always the same: stress from work or family would build up, he would feel overwhelmed and out of control, and gambling provided a temporary escape where the only thing that mattered was the next card. For a few hours, he could forget about his responsibilities, his failures, and his disappointments. But the temporary relief always gave way to crushing shame, especially when he had to explain to his wife where he had been and why their savings account was smaller.
‘God, I don’t understand myself,’ Marcus prayed as he sat in the parking lot, the neon lights reflecting off his windshield. ‘I hate what gambling does to me, to my family, to my witness. I’ve prayed about this, I’ve confessed it, I’ve promised you and my wife that I would stop. But here I am again. What’s wrong with me? If I were really saved, wouldn’t I be able to overcome this?’
As Marcus sat in his car, wrestling with shame and confusion, he remembered a conversation he had with his pastor the previous month. Pastor Williams had shared his own struggles with anger and how, even after decades of ministry, he still had to daily surrender his temper to God’s control. ‘Marcus,’ he had said, ‘the difference between a Christian and a non-Christian isn’t that Christians don’t sin. It’s that Christians are bothered by their sin and keep coming back to God for forgiveness and help.’
As Marcus reflected on his pastor’s words, he realized that his very anguish over his gambling was actually evidence of God’s work in his life. A year ago, he had felt no guilt about his gambling—it was just entertainment. Now, he couldn’t even walk into the casino without feeling convicted. His conscience was more sensitive, not less. His desire for righteousness was stronger, even if his ability to achieve it was still imperfect.
Marcus’s experience mirrors Paul’s confession in Romans 7—the frustration of doing what he hates while failing to do what he knows is right. His very anguish over sin becomes evidence of the Spirit’s work.
The Frustration of Repeated Failure
Paul’s language is remarkably emotional and personal. He doesn’t present a detached theological analysis but a raw confession of frustration and bewilderment. Several aspects of his description resonate with anyone who has struggled with repeated sin: **Lack of Understanding:** ‘I do not understand what I do’ (v. 15). Paul can’t make sense of his own behavior—why he acts contrary to his own values and desires. **Involuntary Action:** ‘It is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me’ (vv. 17, 20). Paul isn’t making excuses but recognizing that his sinful actions don’t represent his true will or identity. **Persistent Pattern:** ‘This I keep on doing’ (v. 19). Paul acknowledges that this isn’t a one-time failure but an ongoing pattern of struggle. **Deep Anguish:** ‘What a wretched man I am!’ (v. 24). The struggle produces genuine distress and a cry for deliverance.
HISTORICAL CONTEXT
Ecclesiastes belongs to the Wisdom Literature, but Romans belongs to Paul’s systematic explanation of the gospel. In Romans 7, Paul addresses the role of the law and the reality of ongoing struggle to counter both legalism (thinking we can achieve righteousness through our efforts) and antinomianism (thinking grace means sin doesn’t matter).
The debate over whether Romans 7 describes the pre-Christian or Christian experience has divided theologians for centuries. Augustine initially thought it described the pre-Christian state, but later changed his view to see it as describing the ongoing Christian struggle—a position that became influential in Protestant theology.
BRIDGE TO CHRIST
ANCIENT TRUTH
Paul confessed that the good he wanted to do, he didn’t do, and the evil he didn’t want to do—that’s what he kept doing. This internal war between the renewed mind and indwelling sin was his ongoing reality.
The same internal conflict that tormented Paul two thousand years ago torments believers today. Different temptations, same war. Different centuries, same Savior.
MODERN APPLICATION
Your cycle of resolution, failure, shame, and renewed resolution isn’t evidence that you’re not a real Christian. The very fact that you hate your sin and want to change is evidence of the Spirit’s work in you.
NEW TESTAMENT ECHO
Paul’s cry ‘Who will rescue me?’ is answered by his own triumphant declaration: ‘Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!’ The answer to repeated failure isn’t self-improvement but Christ-dependence.
HONEST-EXAMINATION
How does Paul’s honest confession about his internal struggle encourage me in my own battles with repeated sin?
- How does Paul’s honest confession about his internal struggle encourage or challenge your understanding of the Christian life? What aspects of his experience resonate most with your own?
- How do you distinguish between your identity in Christ and your ongoing struggles with sin? What helps you remember who you truly are when you fail?
- What patterns of repeated sin do you struggle with most? How does understanding Paul’s experience change your approach to these struggles?
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PRAYER
(personal)Posture: honest-confession
Help me be honest about my struggles while trusting in your grace to transform me over time. I confess that I don’t understand myself—I do what I hate and fail to do what I want. But I thank you that this struggle itself is evidence of your work in me. Rescue me through Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen.
TAKEAWAY
Stop pretending I don’t struggle with repeated sin. Acknowledge one specific area where I keep failing, and recognize that this struggle doesn’t disqualify me from God’s love.
LEAVING AT THE CROSS
- The belief that real Christians don’t struggle with persistent sin
- The shame that makes me hide my failures rather than bring them to God
- The pride that thinks I should be able to overcome sin through willpower alone
RECEIVING FROM THE CROSS
- The truth that my struggle is evidence of God’s work, not His absence
- The freedom to be honest about my failures without fear of disqualification
- The patience to accept that sanctification is a process, not a one-time achievement
CHECK YOUR UNDERSTANDING
FOR REFLECTION
- How does Paul’s confession that he doesn’t do the good he wants to do but does the evil he doesn’t want to do affect your understanding of the Christian life?
- What comfort or challenge do you find in his honest acknowledgment of ongoing struggle with sin?
- How can you maintain hope and identity in Christ while dealing with repeated failure?
FOR ACCOUNTABILITY PARTNERS
- Share one specific area where you experience the ‘Romans 7 struggle’—doing what you hate while failing to do what you know is right
- Discuss how understanding the difference between ‘struggling with sin’ and ‘living in sin’ changes your approach to your failures
- Ask each other: ‘What does your anguish over sin tell you about God’s work in your life?’
FURTHER READING
RELATED SCRIPTURES
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Jeremiah 17:9
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?
Romans 7:24-25
What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
FOR DEEPER STUDY
bookRomans 7-8
Read the full context of Paul’s discussion on the struggle with sin and the victory through the Spirit
articleThe Debate Over Romans 7
Study the historical interpretations of whether Paul describes pre-Christian or Christian experience
The Honest Struggler
Paul (The Apostle)
The Apostle Paul, author of much of the New Testament, was not afraid to confess his ongoing struggle with sin. Despite writing some of the most profound theological truths in Scripture, he openly admitted that he didn’t understand his own behavior—doing what he hated while failing to do what he wanted. His honesty gives permission to every believer to acknowledge their own struggles without shame.
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.
LESSON FOR US
If the greatest apostle in church history confessed to ongoing internal conflict with sin, we can stop pretending we have it all together. Our struggle is normal, not disqualifying.
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